Have you ever been sitting around and then out of nowhere felt bad because you expected something to happen that didn't? Yeah, well I've had to deal with that feeling quite often lately. My French/English teacher can't teach and she's too stupid to honestly TEACH us anything about english. A couple of my 'friends' aren't acting like themselves lately. And of course, I expected someone to care about the fact that I didn't really sit and eat with anybody at lunch today.
My French teacher, who happens to teach English too, gave us an assignment the other day that just totally blew my mind. She wanted us to read this little ol' magazine and find around 20 words that we didn't know. I read it 2 times and found 5 words I didn't know. Actually, I knew all but two of the words. I was just giving her some credit.
Then she tells us that 20 wasn't really the magic number and that as long as we gave her everything we could that we'd get a 100%. I gave her more than I really should have and I got a 5%. She didn't even give me the percentage I deserved if I had just not finished the assignment.
Now she tells me that I could have just taken a test to prove to her that I already knew the words. I asked for this test and she basically told me that she didn't think I was capable of passing it, so I ended up with that 5% on the homework.
So, a couple days later we go take a reading test to see what level of reading we're at. I'm in the 94 percentile. She sees this and says, "If you scored so well you shouldn't be doing so poorly on your homework..." I mean, seriously, does she really think I'm that dumb? I scored high on the reading test and yet she still doesn't understand why I think I should get a 100% on my homework assignment.
The next week we get new magazines and another chance to do the homework assignment. I, again, can't find much. In fact, I couldn't find any words this time. So she offers the test to the whole class. I'm the only one that wanted it so she said we wouldn't do it then. So, that means I have 2 low end F's in her class.
Please tell me I'm not crazy for saying she's an idiot. I used to respect her but that was before I started paying attention to what she said. Now, don't get me wrong. She's not a bad person, she's just not the fast hamster in the wheel.
A couple of days ago I decided to sit with all of my friends as much as possible in lunch. Now I have trouble getting half of them to talk to me because they aren't friends and they see that I'm sitting somewhere else each day. So now I have a bunch of friends that are treating me differently because of other friends I have.
Lastly, I hope, is about me eating alone. Yeah, I gave up on eating with everyone so now I just pretty much eat alone. I go sit at an empty table and whoever sits down is welcome to eat with me. Hopefully I can get some of my issues fixed because I'm drained... emotionally, physically, and mentally.
I guess that's all but the reason I decided to write this is because a pretty good friend of mine told me that I need to find a way to express how I'm feeling. Writing is my way of doing this. Thanks for reading if you did, I know you didn't have to and that it was most likely boring but I needed to do it.
Capt. over and out!