My aggressive journey to say a few words. (AKA) I'll be saying stuff that won't matter to many of you but it'll ALL mean something to me.
the capt. just got lost at sea
Published on January 4, 2005 By wnx_decoy In Dating
I have been thinking lately, and I just realized that having a girlfriend that does so many awesome things for you is hard.

The best example that comes to mind is from Christmas. Sarah gets up in front of the whole band and tells us all that she has written me a song. A friend of ours, Rich, helped her put music to it.
So, she gets up there and starts singing. I'm sure if you understand the jokes in it you'd probably be laughing the whole time but instead I was crying because she basically got in front of everyone and sang from her heart about how she loved me.

Now, you ask how that makes it so hard on me? Well, I can't give her anything like that. I don't have the musical voice for that kind of thing and I have literally thrown every artistic part of my life out the window except for music.
I love Sarah and all but now when people ask what she got me for christmas I have to tell them that she gave me a song and her heart. Then I have to explain how I haven't even picked out anything for her yet. Don't get me wrong, I tried. But seriously, what do I do now?



The next thing that comes to my attention is how I have to sit back and listen to my bestfriend, Alex, share how upset his is with how these last couple of weeks have been so bad. I mean, he can't walk without crutches due to some knee surgery he had. Then, to boot, him and his girlfriend of (feel free to correct me if I'm wrong) 6 months just broke up too.
At first I thought people were just messing with my head because they were never supposed to break up. Or so I thought.

Sam (his new ex) told me a story that made it seem like Alex was the bad guy and then Alex tells me a closely similar story saying that he didn't ever want to seem that way but that he felt like there was no other choice at the time. I find it hard to believe either one of them to be honest. Sam is a nice girl and I don't think that Alex would be dumb enough to be guilty of the accusations she made. I don't believe Alex because the love that I thought those two shared should have been strong enough to make it through whatever problems they are facing.

Well, like the title says, What Can You Do? I just got lost at sea with this stuff.

Capt. over and out!

P.S.~ I just want to say one thing to Sarah... Thanks for being so sweet and dealing with me... and I guess I'll make that two things. I love you.

Comments
on Jan 04, 2005
I know how you feel about the Sam & Alex situation....it's hard to see this especially when the relationship was going so well....maybe this will resolve itself somehow?.....I hope so...

~Zoo
on Jan 04, 2005
Yeah, hopefully. I just don't want to see Alex cringe in an attempt to not react when Sam walks by and I don't want to see Sam crying if she's going to take the time to also make him look bad. I'm sorry but I just don't think Alex needs her to be talking down about him on top of the heart breaking crying. He's really hurting and this is not something he needs to have added to it. At the same time I don't find it so calming that Alex can go and not try to get Sam to interact with us still. We were all friends in our little group even without Sam dating Alex so I think he should reach out and invite her to hang out with us. I just feel weird not having Sam around now.

Capt. over and out!
on Jan 05, 2005
Yeah, I too know how you feel. I've heard every side of the story more than 5times already. So Yea, i know how it is.

~carebear~
on Jan 05, 2005
I felt the way you do with my ex (sorry for the words of confidence lol, but that's just the way it turned out). It wasn't so much how much she did for me, but how much she had. 2 sport varsity athlete as a freshmen, popular with the upperclassmen, I really felt that struggle to be better than what I am through our whole relationship. So then the bitch dumped me, is dating a guy now just to be popular, and I'm SO much better off with the relationship I'm in now. I thought she loved me but I don't think she did, I don't know. Sad to say, but it was questionable.

If your love is really true (or as true as it can be, I think true love is just a theory), then no matter what you get each other, big or small, it should be enough to send you to pieces when you get it. Maybe not to pieces, but what I'm trying to say is it doesn't matter how big your material presents are. If you can't sing, then write her a poem or take her out somewhere you both want to go. Go with what you can do; if you don't think you have anything to give, well, she likes ya for something doesn't she?

Hoping the captain gets his bearings.
on Jan 05, 2005
Yeah, Andy. I know how you feel. She left me and a couple other of my friends to become popular. It sucks. But life moves on.

~carebear~
on Jan 05, 2005
Thanks Andy. I guess you're right. I guess if I really wanted to get theoretical here then just being here should be enough, though that's not what I want to do. I guess I'll have to talk to Sarah about it soon.

Capt. over and out!
on Jan 05, 2005
Oh jeeze, I am not wonderful i just like expressing how much i love you too brandon... *turns and blushes*
All i can say is that i love you and i never want to lose you, and i really don't sing that great. It s quite alright that you cant
sing me a song.

on Jan 05, 2005
I don't want to turn this into a two person article but you are wornderful and you do have a nice voice. If I say it you can bet I'm not lying because I'm too straight forward for that, as you know.

Capt. over and out!
on Jan 05, 2005
yeah i know all about that
on Jan 06, 2005
Hmm...Andy, your words of wisdom always strike home don't they?...Heh, you're correct...though I hope true love is a theory that can be established into a law....but, we'll have to wait and see, eh?

~Zoo
on Jan 08, 2005
Eh? hmmm...true love, an interesting concept wouldn't you say, does it scare the living crap out of anyone else?
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