the capt. just got lost at sea
I have been thinking lately, and I just realized that having a girlfriend that does so many awesome things for you is hard.
The best example that comes to mind is from Christmas. Sarah gets up in front of the whole band and tells us all that she has written me a song. A friend of ours, Rich, helped her put music to it.
So, she gets up there and starts singing. I'm sure if you understand the jokes in it you'd probably be laughing the whole time but instead I was crying because she basically got in front of everyone and sang from her heart about how she loved me.
Now, you ask how that makes it so hard on me? Well, I can't give her anything like that. I don't have the musical voice for that kind of thing and I have literally thrown every artistic part of my life out the window except for music.
I love Sarah and all but now when people ask what she got me for christmas I have to tell them that she gave me a song and her heart. Then I have to explain how I haven't even picked out anything for her yet. Don't get me wrong, I tried. But seriously, what do I do now?
The next thing that comes to my attention is how I have to sit back and listen to my bestfriend, Alex, share how upset his is with how these last couple of weeks have been so bad. I mean, he can't walk without crutches due to some knee surgery he had. Then, to boot, him and his girlfriend of (feel free to correct me if I'm wrong) 6 months just broke up too.
At first I thought people were just messing with my head because they were never supposed to break up. Or so I thought.
Sam (his new ex) told me a story that made it seem like Alex was the bad guy and then Alex tells me a closely similar story saying that he didn't ever want to seem that way but that he felt like there was no other choice at the time. I find it hard to believe either one of them to be honest. Sam is a nice girl and I don't think that Alex would be dumb enough to be guilty of the accusations she made. I don't believe Alex because the love that I thought those two shared should have been strong enough to make it through whatever problems they are facing.
Well, like the title says, What Can You Do? I just got lost at sea with this stuff.
Capt. over and out!
P.S.~ I just want to say one thing to Sarah... Thanks for being so sweet and dealing with me... and I guess I'll make that two things. I love you.