I was just thinking. I realized that I can be a jerk and that a lot of the time I don't get the impression that people EVER take me seriously enough. Or if they do, they think I'm just mad.
I've decided to try and change that, because I don't want to be someone in trouble and not have anyone believe that I'd need help. It must be great to just lean on others when something comes up, but I typically am leaned on even though I have trouble standing on my own two feet at times.
Am I supposed to be a support beam or am I just putting myself in that situation because my laughter makes me look strong?
I've been harping on not getting into anyone else's business if at all possible and it seems like my cries have gone unheard. Recently a conflict came up among some of the AC Guild (if you don't know what it is it's basically where most of the teens are on JU). I tried to keep everyone out of the conflict that didn't need in it, including my girlfriend, but it seems that when I tell people they should stay out it seems like nobody ever hears me.
The conflict is very minor and yet for some reason it still ended up being an issue the whole day at school. It's not even a problem as far as I'm concerned. Basically, a guy asked one of the girls to go to prom with him, but most of us don't really like being around the girl, so some of us started freaking out.
All I have to say about that is, "it's not a big deal and you don't need to get into this one. it will fix itself."
If everyone (and I mean everyone) would mind their own business school would be more fun, less stressful, and even seem shorter. I love all of the people who found themselves getting worked up but the point of the article is that it seems as if I was totally ignored all this time when I said to stay out of any business they're not a part of.
I here people say certain things because it sounds good but last night at Sarah's church, she brought something up that really hit home with this article. She basically said that people say the "right" thing because it makes them look good. The problem is that most of those people don't act on their words.
(ex: I remember someone saying they wouldn't do 'X' activity if 'N' person was there. 'N' was there and yet 'X' still went anyway.) If someone would have known they would still do X activity then why bring N into is? The thing is that people want to sound big so they say things they don't even plan on following up on.
I have this thing about saying something and then not following up. It's pointless and it makes you look bad. I say I don't want into these things so I simply ignore it. You may find a better way to do that but my way works for me.
I've never really been one to say I'd do the right thing, and then do the wrong anyway. I'm a man of my word and if I ever went against it I'd lose face in myself.
Now, I just want to know. Is my humor what makes me someone to ignore? Am I the one doing what I say I wouldn't? What's the truth? Why don't people listen to me? Why am I the one not taken seriously when I typically do exactly what I say I will?
I'm sorry for rambling, but I thought this was the time and place so please excuse me.
Capt. over and out!
p.s.~ if you can answer any of my questions I'd really appreciate it.